Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Location: Japan and Australia, 2008.



7:38pmTodd

how long have you been in japan?
7:38pmTimothy

3 months..
7:39pmTodd

where before that?

just tassie?
7:40pmTimothy

brisbane

sydney
7:41pmTodd

what has led your way? the lady or something else? what lead to the buddhist break up? any hard feeling by the head monk?
7:42pmTimothy

a little bit
7:42pmTodd

he was dissappointed?
7:42pmTimothy

yes

:(:(
7:43pmTodd

there is too much pressure in such scenes for my liking, that's why I'm a professional window looker!
7:43pmTimothy

good plan...

open the windows..
7:44pmTodd

I did wonder how long you would last- you are basically an independent person and life is so long...
7:44pmTimothy

yes i sure am...

it was to restrictive for me..
7:45pmTodd

No path should last for life, unless one is the human equiv. of a tortoise, methinks! I'm glad you're out!
7:45pmTimothy

thanks brother..

hows life for you these days? feeling good_

?
7:47pmTodd

Up and down- I met a girl I liked recently but it didn't really work out so I have been a bit down of late, I'm keen to move on to a new life situation.
7:47pmTimothy

lifes all about newness...

a new life every day
7:48pmTodd

you don't know what's around the corner, but I do feel that the time for a fresh scene may be upon me. I thought of Africa but I am open to suggestion (by the universe).
7:49pmTimothy

well, just be open, im sure the universe will give you a nice friendly shove soon
7:49pmTodd

yeah, things have been really moving the last couple of days, I just need to let go, I guess!
7:50pmTimothy

yah, but thats the hardest thing to do..
7:50pmTodd

I think hearing of you in Japan has helped me. Maybe I'll drop by on my world tour. will you been in Japan for long?
7:51pmTimothy

forever

well, long time i hope
7:52pmTodd

'cause you love it? or for the lady?
7:53pmTimothy

hmm., i dunno, guess i just want to really get the feel of the place..
7:53pm
Timothy and Bine Lessmeister are now friends.
7:54pmTodd

Cool. sticking to the city?
7:54pmTimothy

aye
7:54pmTodd

do you need a qualification to teach?
7:55pmTimothy

not reallly, i just got some pokey online certificate
7:56pmTodd

did you turn up cold or have things in place?
7:56pmTimothy

cold as a fish
7:58pmTimothy

i just put on a nice suit thats all
7:58pmTodd

back to a one backpack lifestyle?
7:58pmTimothy

trying to..
7:58pmTodd

the good ole suit! you should post some pictures of your Tokyo lifestyle!
7:59pmTimothy

i will sometime, im a bit lazy
7:59pmTodd

do you travel with laptop?
7:59pmTimothy

nah... but i have plenty of spare socks
8:00pmTodd

so who's computer are you using now?
8:01pmTimothy

wifes
8:01pmTodd

is she there? cooking dinner perhaps?
8:01pmTimothy

shes at work
8:02pmTodd

she works and you play?
8:03pmTimothy

haha, i work also, but im not there today
8:03pmTodd

what time is it there?
8:03pmTimothy

703pm
8:04pmTodd

late workers, those japanese? how is the language area, any barriers?
8:04pmTimothy

its a real problem sometimes, but im learning
8:06pmTodd

the language of love?

does that cross the divide?
8:07pmTimothy

sometimes no...

do you use msn?

skype?
8:08pmTodd

no. is it any good? have heard of skype, fill me in.
8:09pmTimothy

its ok, just good for chatting like this.. but this is fine anyhow
8:11pmTodd

i didn't recognise you initially. what's with the long hair- railing against years of buzz cuts?
8:12pmTodd

i'm not against long hair, mind.
8:12pmTimothy

its a good look, but not for all
8:15pmTodd

do the Japanese mind the locks?

I imagine them as the short hair types.
8:16pmTimothy

dunno, but as it is something which is quite unique here, i really love it

they pay big money to have curly hair like mine
8:16pmTodd

Cool. when did you quit the order?
8:16pmTimothy

couple of years ago now, i was only there for about 18 months
8:17pmTodd

as a monk? wasn't it longer than that?
8:17pmTimothy

nah..
8:18pmTodd

who's still in launnie that I know?

what was the final straw for you?
8:18pmTimothy

dunno who you know.. i know lena is in melbourne, shes pregnant

louise is in brisbane

final straw.. well, i fell in love with a girl..

and my mum got really sick..
8:19pmTodd

are you good mates with lena? so you got up and left?
8:19pmTimothy

got up and left...

me and lena keep in touch
8:20pmTodd

did anyone try to restrain you? I never got to know lena.
8:20pmTimothy

the Lama tried to talk me out of it, but i had to leave, i had had enough
8:21pmTodd

glad to hear it... I must say all the baggage that goes with religious movements I find difficult to deal with.
8:21pmTimothy

i can dig it, religion can be a beautiful idea.. but its hard to keep it in check sometimes
8:23pmTodd

yeah, its important to get people to focus on important matters that are often ignored in the clamor of life.
8:23pmTimothy

yes, especially in a place like japan
8:24pmTodd

do you and your wife have your own aprtment?
8:25pmTimothy

we rent.. its far too expensive to buy here...
8:26pmTodd

Love makes all things good?
8:27pmTimothy

really? why?
8:28pmTodd

I am thinking of my girl I like- she is out to a performance with my housemate tonight. She said she only wanted to be my friend. I would go anywhere with her if she returned my feelings.
8:28pmTimothy

unrequieted love is painful

did you ever know a girl in tasmania called kerstin, with red hair?
8:30pmTodd

in launceston, you mean?
8:30pmTimothy

yups
8:31pmTodd

no, why?
8:31pmTimothy

just wondering.. but anyhow, go on, about is girl....
8:33pmTodd

did you love kerstin, I am wondering now!
8:33pmTimothy

loved her lots!

she was the reason i took of my robes
8:33pmTodd

what happened?
8:34pmTimothy

long story, but i gave her my love and she didnt want it, she ran away..
8:34pmTodd

did she ever accept your love, or not at all?
8:35pmTimothy

she did, but then i think she got scared, she thought i would abandon her
8:35pmTodd

did she tell you that?
8:35pmTimothy

yah
8:36pmTodd

would you have abandoned her? where did she run to?
8:36pmTimothy

i wouldnt have, she didnt run anyway, just kind of shut me down, avoided me.. now shes in canada with husand and daughter

8:37pmTodd

shietzer!
8:37pmTimothy

you know it
8:38pmTodd

god is very bad, I am sure of it!
8:38pmTimothy

no he isnt... just because humans are bad, doesnt mean that god is..

he is just. and sometimes that sucks hairy arse
8:39pmTodd

was she a young girl? and god is good but I hate him sometimes!
8:39pmTimothy

my age...

and we are bad, but god loves us always..

haha, sorry i wont get preachy on you
8:40pmTodd

was she young emotionally? compared to you, say?
8:41pmTimothy

younger and older.. she had a lot of pain... its like, someone who is old, is closer to being a new born baby again..

she was just emotioanlly a bit sore
8:41pmTodd

kid gloves, I guess!

did you end up hating each other?
8:42pmTimothy

yah, but i wasnt capable

we dont hate each other, we are still friends
8:44pmTodd

in contact? we live and learn and mostly by loss, I think.
8:44pmTimothy

yes, life is a painful journey
8:45pmTodd

I have a song for you: left bank by Air
8:45pmTimothy

could ya email it?

i love air
8:46pmTodd

what's your address? I could even mail a CD. the whole pocket symphony album is a doozy!
8:46pmTimothy

sweet

my adress is....

#206 3-13-2 Higashi Nogawa, Komae City, Tokyo, 201-0002
8:49pmTodd

that's a lotta numbers!
8:50pmTimothy

i know.. they like numbers.. the 3-13-2 is the street name

haha
8:51pmTodd

i would like to see a picture of this kerstin, was she at the centre? (buddhist near park) i loved a kirsten once.
8:52pmTimothy

she lived near the centre, but never went, shes more of a pagan

kerstin is a beautiful name.. you can see her on my list of facebook friends
8:52pmTodd

how did you meet? and in what year, may I ask?
8:53pmTimothy

well, she wrote me a letter one day, to introduce herself to me, seems she had seen me around, taken a fancy to me, and got my contact details from the berkana
8:53pmTodd

i'm wondering where I was.
8:53pmTimothy

mayde devonport
8:54pmTodd

were you a monk then?

pretty rad getting a letter.
8:54pmTimothy

yah, it was a bit of a shock, but i knew who she was, had seen her often on the street, and was already very attracted to her

she changed me a lot, and not all of it for the better
8:55pmTodd

freaky, I am fascinated!

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freaky, I am fascinated!
8:56pmTimothy

well, i really had a big heart break, after it, i just havent been as light..
8:57pmTodd

you will need to tell me over one of them japanese spirits!
8:57pmTimothy

sounds like a plan stan
8:57pmTodd

that is kinda sad, I dunno, I think all breaks can be healed with time and meeting when ready.
8:57pmTimothy

yes, it will take time..
8:58pmTodd

maybe even in heaven with god or jesus there, for respects.
8:58pmTimothy

perhaps i was just bought down to earth a bit, back in the days, i was very light, but perhaps too light
8:58pmTodd

you took up your space and was very grounded yet, yes, light as a feather!
8:59pmTimothy

yah, but not so much these days,,


Break---




9:00pmTodd

i am glad to hear of your powerful feelings and love for a girl, it is heartwearming!
9:00pmTimothy

thanks... glad to share...